♥Tuesday, June 15, 2010♥
harro ppl....
i nw v sleepy...feel like wan sleep AGAIN...
haha....
ytd slept quite late...i pei Andrew chat while he go TON...
lol...he go TON oso he tell me he at there v bored...
haha...we chat quite awhile...bout my bro, myself, him....
todae he maybe cuming, maybe nt??? dunno...see e weather and wad time he gonna wake up...
i juz hope tat he will cum my hm....so tat i dun hav to stay with my bro e whole dae....ALONE....
i suspect ar my mum knw bout my relationship with my BF ehk....
coz she keep asking who i texting and all....thn she always tell me nt to waste my time with boys and gg into relationship..i dun understand y she like tat to me lorhh....
my dad say if i wan BF cn but dun go ard doing stupid stuffs....i knw larh hw to control...
lol....sumtimes i fed up with them..but when i sit and think bck again, wad they say is true..
ytd when at JP, saw Maisara(primary sch friend and sista) and Ramadan oso...
both i met at e escalator...lol...Mai was with her friend...so nvr get to hug her...i miss her so much..
Ramadan was gg down e escalator and i was juz gg up...so we smiled to each other
thn when he was beside me, he show me his hand thn i tot wad larh thn he looked at his hand
thn i shook his hand...he grabbed my hand quite hard ar...his hand was warm and comfy siol....haha...
wa really sleepy nw...e weather is making me sleepy....
i so bored nw....nth to do...wan chat with Nicholas he bz play BS...
wan go out dunno wan go where or do wad and with who oso dunno.....
since juz nw i keep staring at e comp...nth to do....
maybe ltr gg SLEEP AGAIN....if Andrew nt cuming ar...if he cum thn too bad lorh...
haha....k larh ppl nth to talk bout liao...bubbye....
[I MISS U DEAR..]
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 12:40 PM
@ 12:40 PM
♥Monday, June 14, 2010♥
hey ppl....
i here juz gt bck from JP..
todae i whole dae with my bro...thn juz nw Andrew wan cum my hm meet me..
but he cant...coz of sumthing....haixx...
todae gt like a v big mood swing....
i feel v down....and i've gt no clue y....i tried cheering myself up...
but its really nt werking....
maybe coz i miss him too much...
haixx....arghh!! wad e hell happened to my life???
T.T T.T T.T
ppl who hated me in tis life maybe its u all judged me too early...
u all juz cant accept for who am i....
i am who i am nw....i cant change myself....
i am born nt to make u happy all e way.....i hav my way of life...
palapuki sia kaw....if u wan hate me cum and tell me yourself...dun need to hide...
i'm sry if i had made many ppl hate me....
i nw i am such a useless gal...
and i'm sry coz i cant make all of u happy...
i really sry....
i am an imperfect gal...
i knw....
if u all hate me from nw onwards juz tell me by texting,calling, writing in my blog(with your name)
plss....i'm begging u ppl....i knw...if u all hate me e way i am, i cant help it...
i felt bad if i cant make u all happy u knw....i cant take it....
k larh ppl...i gtg nw....i'm sry again to u ppl....
[i am born nt to make u all happy..]
[i am an imperfect person..i knw]
T.T T.T T.T
todae gt like a v big mood swing....
i feel v down....and i've gt no clue y....i tried cheering myself up...
but its really nt werking....
maybe coz i miss him too much...
haixx....arghh!! wad e hell happened to my life???
T.T T.T T.T
ppl who hated me in tis life maybe its u all judged me too early...
u all juz cant accept for who am i....
i am who i am nw....i cant change myself....
i am born nt to make u happy all e way.....i hav my way of life...
palapuki sia kaw....if u wan hate me cum and tell me yourself...dun need to hide...
i'm sry if i had made many ppl hate me....
i nw i am such a useless gal...
and i'm sry coz i cant make all of u happy...
i really sry....
i am an imperfect gal...
i knw....
if u all hate me from nw onwards juz tell me by texting,calling, writing in my blog(with your name)
plss....i'm begging u ppl....i knw...if u all hate me e way i am, i cant help it...
i felt bad if i cant make u all happy u knw....i cant take it....
k larh ppl...i gtg nw....i'm sry again to u ppl....
[i am born nt to make u all happy..]
[i am an imperfect person..i knw]
T.T T.T T.T
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 6:35 PM
@ 6:35 PM
♥Sunday, June 13, 2010♥
haroo ppl...
i juz came back from Vivo City...go there do nth juz walk ard kill time..
haha...tis yr sucks alot to me...
dunno y lorhh...
tis holi is e worst one between all e other holi lorhh..
i soo tired and lazy to upload e pics which i edit and took it...
nowadays, i rather spend my time staying at hm sleeping and playing e comp
rather thn do other werk...i V LAZY LORHH....
haha...,.so bad horh...
ytd juz settled prob with my friend...haha...say sowie to each other ready
thn all settled...maybe its juz tat we had a big misub=nderstanding...
haha....so sleepy nw...nth more to write in...so ciao ppl...
[peace out dear]
muackss...
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 6:33 PM
@ 6:33 PM
♥Saturday, June 12, 2010♥
haro ppl...
todae gt totally nooooo mood at all...
nth to talk much...
there is tis gal who i hate alot...
she v e egoistic and f****** idiot...
she think gt many ppl like her mehxx in tis world??
ehy pls argh sedar diri sikit ar...
nt oni u gal u knw...many other gal out there argh..
tk say anything psl kaw nyer parents pon kaw ingt aku ckp perr??
ehy, aku ni kn da agos tau maseh baek ngan kaw dokk...
mak bpk aku pon tk sukerh kaw argh...
kaw ingt perangai kaw tu baek per argh???
mcm sundal lagy aderh ar...
mmg btol aku ader bbl psl kaw kt blakang kaw tp aku ckp facts..
tk mcm kaw...kaw step mcm maner nyer bdk baekk...
kaw mmg step jambu and nk step minah manerhh yg nk show off kaw nyer mataer
yg mukerhh sememek???ehy leh relak one corner suah...
aku tk kacau idop kaw thn kaw jgn kacaw idop aku ar...pls k...
benci aku tk yah nk gy tulis kt blog kaw dokk...leh ilang aku sendiri perr...
thn we da tk yah kacau, gado, bbl ngan each other lagy perr....
kaw yg start story dulu perr...
psl mataer leh tinggalkn kwn???baek perr tu???
lagy skarang kaw nk ckp ngan aku cm gyni??
palapuki btol ar kau.....
juz nw msg Nicholas thn ask him wadeva things i gt doubts on...
thn at last gt e truth...which is nice to hear...
really miss him....
[ e love todae may nt be as strong as we wanted it to be..but e love will grow stronger each dae if we trust and love each other..soon it will be v strong tat no one cn pull us apart..]
i just dun understand y tis yr sucks to me...it really sucks..relationship with family, friends and even e f****** schmates oso like shit and gt alot of e dammit probs....
we may be fighting todae and e nxt we may nt...but e relationship tat we keep i hope it is strong enuf...
e relationship i hav with everyone it is all important to me....
[to all my haters: if u all hated me, go on and hate me...i dun and wont ever force u to like me in e first place....so cum on live it up...tell me off tat u hate me...i dun regret losing sumone who is nt sincere]
wad do u do if sumone u loved hates u and ignored u??? wad would u do if your friends hated u to e core??? wad do u do if ppl ard u dun knw tat u are e real u and it cant be changed??? and wad do u do if ppl ard u dun understand u at all???? T.T T.T
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 4:04 PM
@ 4:04 PM
♥Friday, June 11, 2010♥
harro ppl...
todae just finish my choir camp...ytd gt mly camp and it is soooo
BORING!!!!
i hate it...thn ytd nite gt e nightwalk with e choir...hah
it was FUN..but halfway need go bck AVA rm...
at first we went nightwalk alone without any teacher and seniors...
thn all e CP ppl all so and tooo KPO thn cum and follow us..
gt surprise....thn my whole point of joining choir and cuming to
all e practice all are done and i get it ytd when e nightwalk...
hahaha...i really hope wadeva e things which had happened will continue
and will benefit me...i really hope so....
ytd slept tgt with Dashini, Natasha, Santhiya, Aishah, and sum other ppl too...
had fun...but in e middle of e nite, i msg Nicholas and confess to him bout my whole
fucking feelings...Dashini read it thn she keep asking me if he gt reply me anot...
coz i like no energy and no mood at all for everything when he do tis to me.....
i really sad nw.....
k larh ppl...i gtg...nxt time i tell u all more bout e camp and everything k....
[ to all spammers and ppl who hate me: if u hate me tell me and juz fuck off...dun fucking write in my blog and nvr put your name...ppl like u all are totally juz like a coward...FUCKERS...
dare cum meet me and tell me ar...dun need say behind me...]
[HATE ME?? = TELL ME AND FUCK OFF DUN BE IN MY LIFE..]
[LOVE ME?? = SHOW IT AND I WILL REPAY U BCK..]
[MISS ME?? = TELL ME AND I WILL TRY AND BE THERE AND I WILL BE MISSING U TOO..]
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 8:53 PM
@ 8:53 PM
♥Tuesday, June 8, 2010♥
harro ppl....
todae was okayy larhh...
holi sucks really...(as usual)
ytd i met Andrew...had fun with him...he did nt stop tickling me...
he really cared bout me...he took cared bout my health and
ytd my leg was in pain coz gt big cut at there he helped me go put med
aft he went hm, i played comp thn e fucking 'Nightclub City' at fb gt virus
thn when doing some shifting thn sudden shut down...
thn nehmind...went to e rm listen music in e dark thn msg Andrew again...
wanted to msg Nicholas and chat with him but he told me he cant msg much until tmr
asked y but he dont wan to tell..he said its too long to explained...
haixx....y u like tat to me tis days????
arghh...nvm argh...ytd slept at 7.55pm like tat thn woke up
at 10.05pm go to e kitchen thn drink plain water thn continue sleeping until
just nw morn...tat one oso still cant wake up...haha....
v bad horh??? LOL
i todae go choir normally...thn laugh there laugh here....thn need sing]
tis stupid Chinese and French song again....
but slack most of e time...haha......
do sectionals awhile thn took pic here and there thn done....
haha...gd horh????
here are e pics for todae....
todae was okayy larhh...
holi sucks really...(as usual)
ytd i met Andrew...had fun with him...he did nt stop tickling me...
he really cared bout me...he took cared bout my health and
ytd my leg was in pain coz gt big cut at there he helped me go put med
aft he went hm, i played comp thn e fucking 'Nightclub City' at fb gt virus
thn when doing some shifting thn sudden shut down...
thn nehmind...went to e rm listen music in e dark thn msg Andrew again...
wanted to msg Nicholas and chat with him but he told me he cant msg much until tmr
asked y but he dont wan to tell..he said its too long to explained...
haixx....y u like tat to me tis days????
arghh...nvm argh...ytd slept at 7.55pm like tat thn woke up
at 10.05pm go to e kitchen thn drink plain water thn continue sleeping until
just nw morn...tat one oso still cant wake up...haha....
v bad horh??? LOL
i todae go choir normally...thn laugh there laugh here....thn need sing]
tis stupid Chinese and French song again....
but slack most of e time...haha......
do sectionals awhile thn took pic here and there thn done....
haha...gd horh????
here are e pics for todae....
k la...ciao ppls.....
[to u honey: i really need u...i really love u....i really miss u....]
[i hope we cn improve our relationship k dear...i need it to be improved]
[tat should be me holding your hand, tat should be me makin u laugh]
[tat should be me...tat should be me....]
[tis is so wrong i cant go on...]
[nw if u're trying to break my heart, its werkin]
[tat should be me....tis is so sad...]
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 5:22 PM
@ 5:22 PM
♥Thursday, June 3, 2010♥
hi..
todae was like every other dae...but oni todae was more bored...
first, went choir...thn sing here sing there....
e f****** teachers all nvr cum oni Mr Tan and e another teacher *insertname*
haha...all boring type of teacher...
we called e Mr Tan [GAY]....
so he taught us to sing e Chinese song and e french song...
walao both oso nt nice...
thn all of us kena lectured by him....
while he teaching, i was eating my chewing gum at there and was covering my fone
behind my paper while texting Andrew....
if i nt wrong e [Mr Gay] knw tat i playing with my fone thn he stared at me like wan eat me up...
haha...but i heck cared him...haha...
he cant scold me mahxx coz even when i texting ppl i still concenterate on
wadever he teaching mahxx...
he asked all of us go try and figure out e notes there...
to me it was hard at first but at last i'm e only gal between all my friends who is with me to get e note figured out
and all ask me if cn copy anot...wahh...i just found out tat i cn read e notes...haha
12+ like tat we gt released and thn e another teacher cum and tell us to pay tis pay tat
pass e consent form to her....all tat...
went gek poh with Dashini, Natasha and Santhiya...
while otw there, we saw Turkey, his Friend and Ramadan...
walked passed-by Turkey and his Friend thn keep saying turkey2*goble2*
haha....shouted bye to Ramadan...thn he oso say bye thn he walked hm...thn reached gek poh go Mc Donald but too many ppl so we went KFC go eat....
haha....thn while eating, me, Natasha and Santhiya all nearly out of breath coz of Dashini talking crap
to tat Abhishek....we at there laugh3.....
in sch before gg out, we went to e canteen coz we were thirsty so go buy drink....
thn e NCC boys all at there...saw You Liang, Saiful, Hazrul and many more...(forget who liao)
i tried looking for him but he nt at there....I really missed him so much....
haixx i hope he feel e same way to me too....
soon its gonna be my turn to have my camp....thn he is e one who must wait for my msg....
(ps. to u dear...i really missed u soo much....i had a high hope to meet u just nw but too bad u nt there)
I LOVE U.....I MISSED U......
many things had went wrong since he went for tat camp and nt here with me
and when i heard and found out tat my grandparents are gonna stay here....
haixx...ytd morning when i was alone at hm, i cried AGAIN....
at night oso i cried AGAIN......
it seems tat i always cry tis few days....
but i'm lucky to hav friends like Dashini, Natasha, Santhiya and many more with me
to keep me strong and cheerful.....
i cn be laughing and smiling on e outside but sad in e inside....
k larh ppl...i gtg nw....
luv ya...muackss...peace out.....
MISSING YOU!!!!!!
(nw and always will)
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 2:45 PM
@ 2:45 PM
♥Wednesday, June 2, 2010♥
hey ppl....
todae i started my dae with a v bad mood and a sad face...
ytd nite found out tat my grandma is gg stay at my hm from sept or oct...
i dun feel gd if she stay here...
she made my cuzz like one f****** person who doesn't knw hw to respect ppl
nw she wan stay here...i so angry at her lorhh...she is like gt attitude prob lorhhh...
thn behind my parents they said tat we like nt sincere to accept her to stay here..
thn nw she herself say tat she wan stay here...
they like dunno wads e meaning of shy lorhh..
talk bout my family ready and yet still u wan stay here...no sense of shy ar u????
F***** SIO U ALL....
(ps. to e ppl who thinks tat i am rude to my grandparents, if u all were me thn u all will knw hw i feel)
(so dun judge me anyhw)
thn sumore todae till fridae he wont be here....
i am so sad lorhh...
y my life like tis?????
he said he gt NCC camp...
i asked him wad time he must reach sch thn he say he must reach 8.30 but just nw when i open my fb and see e comments thn e NCC ppl say must reach sch 7.45....
wad is tis??? which one to trust???
haixx...
if it was him who lied to me, i just and wont understand y e hell in e world did he hav to do tat....
haiyaa....hope tat he will tell me e truth for everything from nw on.....
(ps. to u dear...if u were lying to me, pls i'm really begging u to stop it and just tell me e truth...u dun need to lie to me....u came into my life and made sure tat i trusted u so much and u made me from like u as my friend oni till i like u as my bf..so pls dun break it all and go out of my life just like tat plss....)
haixx...my life is sooooo complicated sia.....
nw i dun knw who to talk to abt my prob but oni here tat i cn let it out all....
haixx....i just hope tat by gg out ltr cn make my dae sooo much better....
plss i'm begging to u ppl who hate me or came into my life just to hurt my heart and to lie to me
cn just get lost and pls argh stop bothering my life!!!!
and to u if u continue wanting to lie to me thn fine...i just hope i dun burst out shouting and fighting with u...but one thing for sure i will always love u....
I LOVE U DEAR...NO MATTER WAD U DO TO ME....
k larhh ppl....i gotta get ready ltr gg out lerhh....
bubbye...peace out.....
T_T T_T T_T
♥imma hurt you real good, baby
@ 9:30 AM
@ 9:30 AM
Ben & Jerry's Ice-Cream